Professional Victim...

And here we go again…. And again. Since October last year, using different words (or quoting people who talk about real abuse… I’d assume) the self proclaimed survivor saying the same, over and over: “My abuser, just like they all, lies”.

You can only admire her restraint… If my father abused me and then called me a liar when I talked about it, I’d be… beyond myself. “How the f… dare you, you… s.o.b!” Wouldn’t you? But not BD (bio daughter). Yes, she got fffurrrious when I dared to post something on her timeline! Like, questioning her right to express any opinions (and esp. such a blunt one she did, having no frigging idea what she was talking about!) about “her people”, meaning us, Poles. The same poor girl who wanted to live with a Canadian family because she was ‘forced’ to speak her native tongue at home…) Oh man... 80% expletives was her answer. 

But every time I make a point, proving that all that horrible stuff she uhm, allegedly had to “go through” is a total fabrication, The Victim gets strangely quiet. And then… agaaain, reposting comments on those lying abusive bastards (how can I be sure all those are real victims? And that’s exactly, as we all know, the problem; people like her make victims look ‘suspicious’). 

But try to find a single post with a… n even dash of a proof or… an attempt to make a point, to question… anything I’ve said. Nothing. Zip. Why?

TBC. And this is what started.... all this. 

Alison Gorka

13 hrs · 

CN: child abuse, victim blaming, fucking bystanders with their "opinions".

What absolutely stuns me is that more times than I care to have experienced... when people hear about my abusive alcoholic father... they immediately ask "would you/will you ever/do you think you can forgive him"...

...without ever asking if he had asked for forgiveness. without asking whether he repented or took any responsibility for his actions.

instead of turning their sights on him, they turn their sight on the survivor, make it about the survivor's reaction. and expect me to forgive him. as though that's the natural progression.

without anything necessary on his part.

without knowing that for years, I was told that if I had done something differently, if I had acted differently, if I had changed my behaviour, maybe he wouldn't have HAD to push me down the stairs, throw me out of a chair, swing at me, at my face.

for years I believed that it was on me, that it was my actions that led to it.

then to be asked, again, about my part in it, what my part will be, how will I react.

this is probably why I am so fucking angry when people try and preach to black people in the U.S. right now about forgiveness, about love, about peace... don't focus on the survivors of violence and tell them how to react, focus on the perpetrators. have they asked for forgiveness? have they been punished for their violence? have they been repentant?

DO. THEY. DESERVE. FORGIVENESS.

NO?

THEN. FUCKING. STOP.

(the best part about this bit... I posted something like this earlier today, but I guess it didn't load up to FB properly before I lost signal. so I had to go and type it over again. cuz that's fun. so FUN.)

  
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April 15, 2020 

So many times I tried to get around to finish this post but… yeah, it’s “so much fun”… The mere thought of “going there”… agaaaain(!)  made me puke.

So yes, I understand that it may take 20-30 years to finally… I’m talking about real victims. However, we’re not talking about one of them here b/c… think about it. Even if it's just a little thing... 

After 19 years of silence, the victim fiiinally takes up her courage to… get it all off her chest and trying to put all that hell in words being... possibly in some kind of… trans… And then… oh fuck, it didn’t go through! Have to do it agaaain… This stupid post.

No, it’s not a proof that the professional victim lies but… It took one ‘little proof’ (on top of quite convincing, I think, reasoning) to make a couple of her former friends to completely distance themselves from the obvious liar. And I’m talking guys like Johnny C… Oh, this guy gave me so much shit before…  he realized what kind of a person he was dealing with.. I guess….